... krys: Yes, when constructive spacing out is a conscious break in work, experience, doing, in order to think, rest, reflect, etc. jonathan: Nevertheless, I don't know of anyone, anywhere, who is completely in control of time spent (as opposed to the other way around); there are times when I'm especially industrious and/or conscious, and even then, I find it common and healthy to suddenly awake from reverie and find my essay lingering on the second sentence where I left it an hour ago. krys: This is what I mean when I say trying. There is a quote from an excerpt that I put in the last Mooncycle, from one of Henry Rollins' books. It goes: "I am in motion at all times. Waging war with you, Exhaustion. Winning some and losing some." This is what I mean; not the succeeding, but the trying. jonathan: Let me try something else. The Hebrew-speaking Israelis here have a phrase, la-sim lev [al] literally meaning "to place [one's] heart [on something]." Generally it means "watch out," "concentrate," or "pay attention." The last meaning, for me, seems best to convey what you mean when you speak an underlined word. Living is living that you pay attention to. When meandering down a city street, paying attention is watching the things and people around you. When distracted for an hour from typing, paying attention is noticing the import and consequence of time spent in the astral plane (or whatever). When traveling, paying attention is finding some kind of connection with a new place, even if some isolation is involved in the process. krys: Yes, not to miss life. When you really see or do things, you remember them, because of the level of consciousness and participation involved. You remember what the drive from Tel-Aviv to Jerusalem looks like, because you really saw it. ...